Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Self-Portrait Challenge - Introduction # 1

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This is me. I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister and a friend.

I am casual, relaxed, and down-to-earth. I'm usually barefooted, and I'm normally dressed like I am in this picture.

My hair is naturally curly, which is also very "me". Although I'd be lying if I said I haven't wished for smooth, straight hair on more than one occasion, I will say that my curls fit my personality perfectly. Like my curls, I go in many different directions. With the exception of my ability to tell it to you straight, there is nothing else straight about me. I am open-minded and free. So I love my curls because they fit me. Sometimes the curls are tight and frizzy and positively unmanageable. I'm OK with that, because I'm all of those things too sometimes. Sometimes the curls are virtually non-existant, and are limp, lifeless and boring. I'm OK with that too because I'm all of those things too sometimes. But often, my curls are fun and springy and relaxed. And those are the days I feel most like me.

This squatting position is also very "me". I have an almost 3-year-old and an almost 5-year-old. I am in this position often, since I pretty much live my life at their level. Some would say my mentality is at their level too. And I'm OK with that. Life is short and no one appreciates life more than children. I believe we should all get down at their level and try to recapure some of that youth.

Although reaching for the sky is always a good thing, keeping your feet planted firmly on the ground is an even better one. Some people prefer to leap and jump and fly, their feet on the ground as little as possible. But that's not me. Instead, I squat. I like the security that comes with bending down, with all of me as close to the ground as possible, ready to reach out a hand and brace myself if I should start to fall. I don't like the risks the flyers take. How their scenery is always changing and how they could fall at any minute. Instead, I like to establish my position in my life and in my family and then hold my ground, staying in that position for as long as possible. I'm a squatter.

My nose is a bit crooked due to a freak trampoline accident during my freshman year of college, but I'm OK with that. It gives me character, right?

My smile is crooked. It always has been. It used to bother me. But then I realized that life is not perfect. I am not perfect. And I'm OK with that. Perfect is boring.

I am comfortable with who I am. Sure, there are things I might change about myself, but for the most part, I'm cool with who I've become. I have a crooked face and a not-so-flat belly. I'm addicted to nicotene, I love my Miller Lite, my fingernails and toenails are never painted (and often dirty), I often don't wear makeup, and I have cellulite on my ass. And I'm OK with that. Because I have embraced all of those things about myself and I have squatted. This is where I am in my life, and this is what makes me me.

This is me and I'm OK with that.


mama_tulip said...

Dude, I love this! I love everything you said about yourself because it's everything that I have loved about you, in the years I've gotten to know you. And that's a great picture. You look happy and relaxed and just like...you. ;)

Alien said...

[blushing] Um, I was editing this while you were reading it. LMFAO! I wrote it last night pretty late, and when I read it this morning, there were a few things I wanted to change. But nothing too major.

Thanks for the comments!

EE said...

OMG, I LOVE it too!!!! You did a great job describing yourself. It's totally you. Exactly what Katherine said.

And awwww, your wearing my shirt! :)

EE said...

Oh and that's a GREAT pic of you!

Alien said...

LOL EE! I wear that shirt ALL the time. It's the perfect fit (not too tight, not too loose), and pink and brown is my all-time favorite color combo, so.... LOL!

EE said...

It looks really good on you too! :)

Belynda said...

You are so pretty! This is the first time I've seen a pic of you since I've started reading your blog. Awesome post, too!

Chelle Y. said...

I loved this post about you! You sound like someone I would really be friends with if we ever met in person. I love people who are "real," like my good buddy, Melissa!

My sister has a crooked smile too and it would always bother her. She would tell me, "You're one to talk. You have perfect teeth!" I'd laugh and remind her that I got the crooked body. God had to give me something good. Just kidding!

Amber said...

No wonder Hannah is SO beautiful, she looks just like YOU!

This was so great. You are such an earth sign! No wonder you rub me the right way!(Don't get all excited, I'm not hitting on you.LOL!)

No really. We have a lot in common.


Alien said...

Belynda: [blushing] Thank you. You're very sweet.

Chelle: Yes, I think we would be good friends in real life. :)

Amber: [blushing again] Thank you. Yes, poor, sweet Hannah is my little clone. ((((Hannah)))) Poor kid. LOL! And I think we'd be dangerous together in real life. (In a good way, I mean. LOL!)

JavaCurls said...

Great posting! I also have curly hair so I really enjoyed how you described yourself in reference to your curls!